yes because playing the guitar isnt a hobby!
playing online games isn't a hobby
collecting DVD's isnt a hobby
Owning a nirto RC car isnt a hobby

Please can you tell me exactly what a hobby is
so then i can maybe take it up and do the hobby
thing because it seems everything i choose isnt
right and everything i choose is wrong...

I no longer want to be a dissapointment to people
everyone is trying to help me in my life but i'm
not receptive enough i dont take what people
advise in and in turn i lash out pushing my loved
one away and i'm scared of losing her.

I need counciling (phsyciatric help) so in turn
i can tell them every inch of my past so i can
cry and blame it all on someone else
so i can move on and not be this way

i have depression and have for years and being
mentally strong is spose to be the attitude to have
but the more i pretend i'm ok the more it hurts inside
and the funny thing is i have no idea what i'm depressed
about even funnier i tell anyone who comes onto this page
so have fun reading this judge me and then HATE ME
because i fucking hate the human race
you are the virus that spreads all over this planet
YOU are the cancer of this planet just like me

yes some part of me is content with feeling like this
and it sickens the rest of me i'm 23 going on 24
and i have NO idea what i'm spose to aspire to
i have no great cause... i live in the information age
where anything iwant is at my finger tips i dont have to leave
my room not even for food so why should i?

anyway back onto topic WHAT IS A HOBBY?
i'd like some sugestions because the hobbies i have
aint hobbies in the eyes of my loved ones
and they think i'm not helping myself
help me help myself so i can make everyone around me happy
and content with who i am and what i do

in a further effort to combat my depression i have tried to be strong minded
and happy even when i'm not i smile on the outside and die a little more inside
my gf has been so helpful the last few days and today i feel like SHIT i no longer
care about my job, my life still is going no where and my future looks crap

Still at least i can smile about anything and pretend it's all ok huh ?!

Ever hopeful that i will recover ~ Co2

almost at 3000 you think i can get a scooby snack for that !?

New medication i wonder if it's a placebo like the other one was i hope it fucking works

I hate myself and i want to die
help me cut my wrists and my eyes
let me rest covered in flies
help me hide away from the lies
help me escape from inside
help me die help me die

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